This has been difficult for me to process.
I've been a member of NeoGAF since I was 13, having joined during the pre-release of Zelda SS for the Wii and using my middle school's private email. At first this was just a cute little gaming site for me to browse, speculate about video game theories, gawk at screenshots and read about tech specs (I'm an engineering major now, I think video games ended up informing much of that decision).
This site has been in the background of my adolescent life. When I would read academic papers or news articles, I would browse GAF to see what sorts of discussion would pop up around that. Conversing and debating with adults two to three times my age shaped my mind, improved my diction (especially since English wasn't my first language), and taught me to realize - adults are fucking clueless. Grown men and women could be just as inept as the teenage me - but I learned empathy.
I read anecdotes from people of all leanings. The lack of organization in Off-Topic led me to wander into so many different areas of discussion, good or bad, controversial or not. Even when I didn't participate, just reading what different people had to say, the arguments tossed back and forth - it was so valuable. It gave me the confidence to speak up, assert my identity and my positions.
People declare this place to be an echo chamber, but that has negative connotations I don't think belonged to this site. Even amongst hard liberals, there were disagreements. "Conservatism" took on different meanings due to international users. This place aided in my critical thinking, I was able to discern which threads were worth browsing, and what discussions were nuanced and worthwhile to join in on. And it still managed to be my quirky little fun gaming site, from "Zelda U" to BotW's DLC release.
It definitely seems... weird. But being born in 1998, I'm certainly one of the earlier generations to be 'raised by the Internet', so to say. It's a marvel to read about so many different experiences from so many different personalities, and this site has managed to sustain an air of civil discourse for so long. Even with the instances of absolute stupidity, idiocy, criminal activity... ultimately there was a corpus of members with good spirit and morals who were able to keep it going.
So to see this site reach this point... it's disappointing. It's disheartening. I'm 19, I'm still young, naive, stupid. I don't think the recent course of actions have been right. I think communication should have been more open. The countless sub communities of this site whose members have invested so much of themselves, deserve better. Now as I browse Gaming Side, I feel physically uncomfortable.
There's no real reason for me saying all of this. I suppose I just want my perspective out there. I suppose I'm just procrastinating. I already knew I'd be posting less on this site due to college, but it's a conscious decision at this point. Gaming is getting more exciting - cool tech toys, great graphics, better and better games - I still want to browse and see all that in a well designed website, and I still want to be able to ask specific questions or PM people since sometimes users can be better than Google, but the atmosphere here has changed. And not for the better.