You're such a cliche.
Right now all I'm seeing from you are excuses and misplaced blame. You can go on forever blaming bullies, parents, ex-friends, television, alcohol, etc, but in the end, no one has to live with you but yourself. It's pretty obvious to everyone here that you don't like yourself, so then why should anyone else?
They say it all the time in the relationship threads: cocky and funny. You are neither. You're depressing and morose. Once you get confidence and a sense of humor about things, life seems a lot less gloomy than you've made it seem to yourself. Suddenly, people start to gravitate towards you. Things start going in your favor, situations seem far less threatening, and you actually learn some fucking tolerance rather than judging everyone like you're better than them (all the while complaining about how shitty you are).
I mean, for real here... you've got nerds on a gaming forum telling you to shape up your act. You've hit rock bottom. Don't stay there forever. It sucks seeing people given the opportunity of life only to waste their one shot at it.