So, I'm 32 currently, I got back to university, and I have a gf whom I'm incredibly happy with. We're together for 2 years now and she told me last weekend that she's pregant. It's my child, no worries on that end. The problem is that I have a ... really stupid fetish that seems to bite me in the ass now: I've always liked that idea of impregnating girls, it's just hot in my mind. So having done exactly that to my gf is only making her more attractive to me. What sucks is that also last week, a girl that I have an affair with also told me she's pregnant from me. Yes, I cheat on my gf, but that is purely on a physical level, I only love her, would never betray her (outside of 'that', I guess). This is also not a new experience, as I already got a chick pregnant 1.5 years ago. I managed to wiggle me self out of it, basically convinvced that girl to keep it, but to find a better guy. Luckily, she never bothered me again after that. Though I know via fb that I have a healthy son. Kinda p
roud. Anyway, I'm somewhat scared about the current situation. If I cannot repeat the whole convincing thing with that other affair's girl, she might tell my gf and that ... wouldn't be so good. I realize full well that it's a shitty thing to cheat on your SO, but I also always tell myself that it's only physical, like taking a pee or shit. The whole pregnancy fetish is another problem altogether. Dunno. It's the thought of impregnating these girls and somewhat 'making them mine' by doing so, even when they're not in a relationship with me. Now, when my gf told me about her pregnancy those couple of days ago, I swore to myself that I would stop the cheating and force myself to end this fetish. I'm sending this confession to set a new starting point for a new, better attitude and life. All I'm scared of right now is that other girl. I will see it as a sign of positive karma should that go well. Guess I'll have to make up for that amount of karma, if so. Wish me luck.
