GrotesqueBeauty
Banned
I'd consider this a red flag (no pun intended). Who the hell plays tit-for-tat with pleasing their partner? Not to be crude, but if she doesn't enjoy sucking your cock on its own merits from time to time your chemistry may not be all that. The same would be true if you would deny her anytime she was feeling it and you weren't in a space to join in for some reason.She doesn't think it's fair to get me off when she can't (or I'm unwilling to because I don't like the blood) which I can't argue with.
On further reflection, the fact that you feel awkward about your girl catching you jerking it raises an eyebrow as well. I would personally be bummed out in your situation.